For the time being.

I need to know how I feel.. I guess this is kind of my journal for the moment. All I want to do is sit on this couch and feel numb. Cause that's pretty much how I feel. I don't have any motivation. I don't feel that pull to go do something. I want to go get in my car and drive to check somethings off my to do list, but I'm so scared.. the feeling I know I will feel down the road stops me even from thinking about driving. I'm just not really feeling to up too a lot right now, I guess I'm in a funk. I'm so ready to be back in Montevallo, just doing my own thing, I'll be able to cook and eat what I want, exercise when I want, and do what I want. Its just hard to find people to ride with me. Sometimes... a lot of the time I feel like I'll never be driving from home to Montevallo, or vice versa. I don't know what that means, or why I feel that way. I just want to break out of this shell and run.

I just feel alone.

I wasn't going to put this out there... But, I guess I will. This is how I feel, no reason to hide it.